theres seriously no hope for me. Ive always been doomed to fail in life and i know it. i grew up not being allowed to even go outside and just being constantly beaten on so my social skills are awful, even more since the last two years ive spent completely locked in a fucking basement with absolutely nobody. worse part is everyone knew how my family treated me, nobody cared. Only just a few months ago i got taken from them, but i still feel so out of place. i shouldnt be alive im just a burden. I cant do anything right. My like two people i could even barely call my "friends" always tell me how nice i am, but really its just because if i wasnt, id have nothing special about me and theyd just leave me. I just want somebody to care so badly i want to have somebody i can actutally laugh with and talk about everything. I get so jealous seeing people just living so easily knowing that a freak like me could never live like that.