HOLY SHIT Im losing in everything. ive lost the people i thought i were my friends but in reality i never truly had a close friend i could confide in. IVE NEVER HAD A BEST FRIEND OR A CLOSE FRIEND OR ANYONE I COULD DEEPLY RELATE WITH LIKE EVERYBODY ESLE DOES. Ive been humiliated so many times that i dont even feel human anymore , for being poc, for being born a girl, for my mental illness, for being myself, for being misunderstood Where i live everyone is so fucking boring, They all misunderstand me, and when the sun finally shined outside for once its extremely unbearable heat Im forced to be in a religion that im not even sure i believe in anymore, along with its community that i can no longer stand I very likely have autism and other mental disorders but i have to wait til im 18 to actually get diagnosed. Talking to consuelor feel like talking to a wall. I dont think it helped I am losing weight and starving ive lost my appetite alot i cant just die yet but this is unbearable