I wish falling in love is easy for me. I wish I'm not scared of intimacy. I wish I am not sensitive to rejection. I'm so damn jealous of the happy couples I know irl. They are so in love with each other, they do things together a lot, they achieved milestones together. I'm so jealous because it feels like I could never experience that. I'm too scared of other people. I feel like they could replace or abandon me easily, so all I know to keep myself safe is to put up a thick wall between me and other people. Yet, even so I still badly yearn that one day I can have a happy love story too. It sucks-