I just wish I was important to one person in the entire world. It breaks my heart every single day. No matter what I do, everyone would rather pretend I don't exist. My birthday was 5 days ago, I turned 28, I didn't get one single message from anyone. I haven't had a real friend in over 2 years, despite constantly trying (besides the times where I'm depressed from getting left behind by yet another "friend") it makes me feel like everything about me is wrong. There must not be a single thing about me that is interesting. I already know I'm annoying, and desperate, and boring. But does that mean there isn't a single person on earth who would want to be friends with me? Even when there are terrible awful people doing horrible things every day?? Am I worse than that? I care a lot about every person I meet, even if it's the cashier at the store or the car next to me at a stoplight. So... Why do i feel selfish to want one person to care as much about me, as I care for everyone else?