I MISS MY BFF. She's the girl I laugh so hard w, we had so many inside jokes and shared a lotta niche interests. But I was lowk possessive of her. Like I'd never directly show it.. I'd fake laughs w some other buds while secretly watching her interact with others through my peripheral view.. just to prove? that I wasn't bothered with her talking with others, and that I didn't think of her all the time (but i did). We had separate fgs, and as both of us just acted unbothered all the time, we eventually got more awkward with each other..and now it js feels unnatural for us to personally hang out beyond our own fgs. we still KINDA talk, but it's rlly awkward 1-1. We also used to text EVERY single day, but now it awkward to even send her reels. Im happy that she's happy but also i wish the person she laughs the hardest w is me again. I look thru my past pics w her a lot and i always feel myself yearning for those times again. js felt like venting this insignificant, selfish concern out ig