I sent another note but ran out of space, It doesn’t help that I feel as if I don’t truely have a connection with anyone. People talk to me, but I can’t talk to them, it feels like I’m not actually close to people, and instead I’m someone they can chat to, can call a friend, but not a close friend. It feels like everything I value is something for them to dismiss, for them to ignore so they can tell me about themselves. I don’t feel human. I haven’t felt human for over 6 years, and I thought I finally escaped feeling like shit. But no. I was wrong. I’m 18 years old, and I still don’t have a person to vent to or to trust enough to spill my truest thoughts to without fearing they’d leave me behind. I’m terrified of losing people.
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