I am completely alone. I have no friends, barely any family, sure i have a husband and a sister but nobody understand me, everyone laughs it off when I talk about the crippling depression im going through or tell me to go to the gym or eat healthier itll make me feel better and doesnt see how hard my heart is besting everyday, how I cant sleep anymore without crying, how I can put everything into everyone else but can barely take a shower. Sometimes I feel like its my fault that im so alone, something is wrong with me or im the problem and thats why all these bad things are happening and why nobody actually wants to be with or around me and thats why I have no friends and the ones that i did have all did awful things to me or decided they no longer liked me. I hate myself and my life and I wish I could just be happy and normal