i want others to like me but i don't really like others. not even my friends really. they're good people but im always testing their love for me. to be honest they're so busy and so stressed i don't think they have the bandwidth for me anyways. i dunno. i can't support them the way they need either really. I get annoyed at their helplessness though sometimes. Well im only thinking of a specific friend for that. But I guess I resent all of them. For what reason though...? Lol. that they won't pay attention to me? That I can't tell if they love me? I don't even like it when people like me, anyways. They don't respect you anymore once they covet you. They stop seeing you as a person. Ur just a hot girl to them or someone they can unload their problems onto. All genders all races... idk. I feel like I attract people that don't respect me. Probably cuz I don't have boundaries. I have CPTSD don't listen to me LOL. Ahhh i want to live in a pretty world and cry a lot. I wish I could cry