I just dont get it, why do i have to be the faulty? why am i the always troubled kid who deserves nothing but shame and needs god for what i did? i genuienly dont get it, what i did was far better than my sis and she js goes off and easy. i dont, i didnt, i never will. it just hurts man, im only 13. i dont think a 13 year old deserves to get seperated from all her friends, lose all her privleges, be monitored closely 24/7, be shamefully looked at, gossiped about by grown ass women, seperate from her lover harshly, get said fucked up things no 13yr old needs to hear, get reminded of "everything" shes done, put the guilt of almost killing her father almost everyday for almost 2 months, and more. for almost 2 months things were straight up like that, 2 months, no phone no social media no friends no will to live nothing. its funny honestly because im monitored very closely and theyre focusing on the wrong kid. this is what i get for being in a conservative family. i have no one, nothing.