i cut myself again like...4 hours ago or something...? idk....it's getting worse...my life's terrible but it's also ok? idk...sometimes i'm happy sometimes i'm just idek i can't say depressed bc i'm not diagnosed with depression yet, but i feel like i have it, i'm always sh-ing, i'm always tired even when i get enough sleep i can like...never feel happy or energetic enough? my parents fight occasionally, then i cry A LOT then they continue to yell even at me! and sometimes i haven't even done anything to make them mad at me...it's just them getting their anger out on the 'easy target' since i'm the youngest. speaking of sh...my dad always tells me not to harm myself because of what others think...well he might be very late for that...because i've been self-harming for almost three months already.... i also think i'm not as much of a bad person as i am when i'm with my friends, bc sometimes my friends influence me then i act bad, like i'm kind, but i'm just tired