I wonder how mediocre I am, how many times someone has lived my life, how similar it is to my life, how I act and how I developed, I feel like nothing will ever distinguish me as my own person, I will never be free of the fear that weighs over my head, I am horrified that my life is probably as basic as it could get, depression, anxiety, ADHD c-ptsd practically everyone has those. It shouldn't surprise me if there wasn't. Just a mirror image of myself out there. And still doing everything better.