i dont even know what to do with my life. im not sad but im not happy i feel like. idek. i feel so ugly when all the poeple at my school are hot asf and im just there looking like a fcking idiot. why cant i ust have lng straight hair with a tea body and no stupid acne. and ik god isnt happy with me saying all this stuff about myself and im sorry lord but why do i hate myself. im trying to not let satan get to me but its so extremely hard to not let the voices in your head that are saying my stupid and ugly take over when i feel like its true. and the thing is my problems arent even big. i just feel like they are even tho they are just about the way i look and feel about myself. i have done some worse things that i dont wanna say but im not proud of it. like at all. and i feel like i ave no one to talk to. of course i have God and im so greatful but yk i wish i had someone to talk to irl who could respond to me straight away. i cant tell parents or friends cus they will think im weird.