I’m so fucking scared of my dad. It’s not even funny, I genuinely am planning on cutting off contact with him when I’m older. He shuts me down. He’s trying to live a dream through me, that I’m not sure I want. I can’t joke around with him, he barely supports me unless it’s in sports or music. Anytime he talks to me with a certain tone, I just go into panic mode. I know he would never hit me, and I know some people definitely have it worse, but I’m so scared of him I don’t even feel safe in my own home anymore. My parents are divorced, and rn I’m at my mom’s house thankfully, but tommorow I have to go to his house for five fucking days and I’m dreading every minute of it. Sometimes I feel like killing myself would just do the job, so I don’t have to live in constant fear, but I’m also scared to do that too. I want therapy for my anxiety, but then again, it’s not that bad compared to other people’s situations, so I have to wait 5 more fucking years till I can move out.