I feel horrible. I feel like I just ruined an amazing friendship between me and this one other guy. We met through school but bonded because of our moms. I've been friends with him for about two years now, and we were just normal friends. Recently, I felt like I've been catching feelings. I ignored it, but I felt like it was getting stronger and everything became so confusing. The THOUGHT of liking and dating him was so weird, awkward, and just abnormal. I would subtly give him hints and stuff, but I never really acted on it. Today, I sent like a ton of hints, and I don't know why tbh. I asked him to call, like we normally do, and he was just PANICKING and I could tell. I kept asking him, "Are you okay??", "What happened??", "Just tell me, omg". And he just confessed. I genuinely just started shaking and we texted and we had the same feeling. We both hated the feeling of liking each other and we weren't ready to date at all. All I want is just for everything to be normal again, please.