Back in 2020 I never really did my homeschool work that was on my tablet. And now it's 2026, and I'm getting into high school in 1 to 2 years, and I don't know what to do. I know I did this to myself. I know I could've asked for help. Yet I did nothing, and I'm just venting it. But even if I try now, I feel like I won't get it. Like, of course I won't because I haven't tried, but if I tell her now, I don't know what would happen to me. Like, would she think I was a waste of investment? Would she recreate adopting me? Would she isolate me from my online life she doesn't even know about? I have tried to be honest with some parts of me, like being trans, but of course she only adopted me because of my original sex. Would life even be worth it to be called a name I don't want? Looking and wearing what I don't like? I doubt I would even make it far enough to 18.