I’m going to kill myself on Novembers 16th, right after halloween and my best friends birthday and right before I turn 18. I’m trying to distance myself from everyone so they don’t miss me when I’m gone. I feel so guilty ignoring my boyfriend, he doesn’t deserve this and I feel horrible but I can’t take it here anymore. I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can remember and I’m only living for him and my best friend, but whats the point in doing that when they will most likely forget about me in a few months- a year. It isn’t worth what I experience everyday, but yet I can’t stand ignoring my boyfriend and i hate making him upset. I wish I was never born so I didn’t have these connections.
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