I have this tendency to overreact when my friends or boyfriend do something minor that I perceive as wrong. I'll often pick a fight or threaten to end the relationship just to see how he’ll respond. If he doesn’t react the way I want him to, I'll become hysterical and accuse him of not caring about me. This behavior has become a pattern in my relationships, and I've even gone as far as giving my boyfriend the silent treatment or bombarding him with anxious texts in an attempt to get a reaction out of him. I've become fixated on being seen as flawless in my relationships, and if I don't meet this expectation, I start to feel like I'm losing control. I want to be someone who's remembered and cherished I don’t want to be this way idk what’s wrong with me. I don’t know how to feel cause even when I’m talking to him I get these thoughts saying “he doesn’t love you” “he’s using you” “he’s deceiving you” and then I run to friendships to talk bad about him to protect myself ik I sound horrible