I just want to tell her I'm sorry. That I'm sorry for being too annoying, too clingy, that I'm sorry for overthinking everything and saying too much. But maybe then I'd be saying sorry too much, and I'd end up saying sorry about that and ruin things. I want to be better at talking, to be better at relationships, but I'm not strong enough for that. I'm weak. I don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong, or if I'm going too far. But perhaps that makes me too reserved. Maybe I don't say enough, or I'm just overthinking like I always do. I just don't want to disappoint her. I don't want to just say that she deserves better, because I could better myself. But maybe even at my best, she'd still deserve better.