im tired. so so tired of people,boys, school , what others think... and i geurally dont know what to do with my life . what am i living for? i ask myself multiple times throughout the day. why live life if im not happy?. i get sexualised called a slag, boys touch me thinking its okay just because they heard ONE THING i did with a boy that i loved he was my first and ill never forget him for the simple fact that he ruined me. i cant do anything or gain genuine feelings for a boy now bc i just feel disgusted with myself . no boy wants to truly know me for me matter fact anybody .i put my trust in people and show me for who i really am and i get it thrown back in my face multiple times. i dont know how to really express my feelings but i just wish i had someone to sit there and just let it all out to with snot and tears tbh i wish that person was my mum i wish i could speak to her about everything , how these boys treat me but i cant im all alone carrying this weight barely holding on