i genuinely don't think anyone loves me, or it doesn't feel like it. I have few friends but our friendship is so shallow, and my family's love feels superficial. It feels more of an obligation tbh. I know Im young and i will meet more ppl but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Idk if i'll ever find anyone that can truly love me. I'm not even asking to be romantically liked or desired, i just want someone on my side and no one is fucking there. My only outlet is my fucking therapist but it gets to a point where it doesn't help ranting to someone across from you. I don't feel a connection to anyone and it's hard to be vulnerable with someone. My online "bff" i don't even consider her mine anymore idk if i ever did the friendship feels a little onesided and when i finally got fed up with her constant trauma dumping and my rants being met with nothing she kinda became idk idk anymore