I don't even know what to say anymore. I honestly want to die so bad. I wish I could rot slowly. I want to end up like Yuri. I want to lay down and just bleed and rot slowly until I'm free. I hate the sharp ache on my arms but it's the only thing I can feel other than numbness. I feel sick, so fucking sick. I want to throw up this feeling and then just feel better after. It's not fair. Other people in my school get to have fun, be happy and have fun with their friends. I want to be happy. I want to have fun at school. I can get help so easily and I am, BUT I CANT STOP. IT HURTS SO MUCH HEARING THAT I HAVE TIME COVER UP MY ARMS WHEN IT ACHE SO BAD. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE LEAVE ME ALONE AND NOT MENTION IT. MY HEAD HURTS WRITING THIS. I'M JUST GONNA SLEEP AND HOPE I DONT GET UP.