I cant help but feel like a constant loser. I feel like there's no chance for me to get a partner, I'm not exactly the ideal by any stretch of the imagination, short, ugly, overweight. I just want to feel loved and special, like im "that person" for someone. I never experienced it, but saying so when i was in a relationship that i ended feels stupid, even if i never got any affection while also holding up the relationship for 6 months. Every time I look around, it feels like everyone around me is getting into a relationship, is happy, never me, but I feel pathetic for saying it, because there was a time when I had the title of boyfriend, even if I never got any love to come with it. I've only ever been second at best, and i just want to be someone's priority. for once. I always end up third wheeling my best friends who are in a relationship, and I can't help but always feel jealous, like they get to be happy and together, they have each other, while I have no one, and i wont ever.