im just so tired of it all. i cry every day despite being a full grown teen, even going through the trouble of forcibly making myself sad with music, TikTok’s, etc. I feel like such an attention seeker sometimes, and I just hate the whole situation. I lie to almost everyone in my life about the simplest things, and I just beat myself up about it at night. I feel like I have no one to talk to. My relationship with my mom is horrible, we get into fights over nothing. My dad obviously prefers my brother, and I’m just a stupid floater friend that people have to hang out with if their main friends aren’t available, like a god damn charity case. I don’t know what to fucking do, this might be my last message. I won’t even bother with letters anymore.