I am tired of my husband calling me a victim and constantly bringing up my past mistakes. I hate how he yells at me and our kids. When he's mad it's like he sees red and no one can talk to him. He will go outside yell and sometimes throw things around. He has never hurt me physically or our kids, but when he gets that way I feel so scared. I feel I'm not good enough for our kids, he compares me to other women who he hates. I hate how angry he is all the time, he hates his job and I feel like he brings that home with him all the time. I just want a normal night where he doesn't drink and get mad at something. I feel like I'm the bad person and I'm constantly walking on egg shells. I look forward each night for when he goes to sleep, he's usually drunk and I know he wont wake up so I know there won't be any yelling. I love him I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel horrible when he yells at our kids, and he constantly yells at me in front of them. I'm so tired.