i genuinely don’t know what to do. i’m a teen girl. i’m not even half sure what i could be diagnosed with. my therapist is shit and i want to change her out for someone new but i dont even know. she’ll never get where im coming from. i feel like i have to putt on a performance to talk to her i can’t talk to my friends. i hate having to reach out first. i do it all the time, but when i need other people to be there for me it feels like they never are. i try my best to be grateful but i see the effort others put in and it’s never for me. i know i can’t permanently feel everything, but every low feels like it can’t get any worse. i made a new friend and somehow i think ive fucked it up and she doesn’t like me anymore. i can’t reach out to anyone. i can’t do anything. academically im strained and mentally im fucked. i don’t have an outlet or a safe space or anyone who wants to listen or hang out or talk or sit in silence with me or play a game or anything. anyway love you