I don't know what I feel. I don't know what to feel. Everything feels so hard to do. It takes so much effort, so much energy. Everyone has an expectation of you. Everyone has an opinion of you. And at some point, the bad opinions overtake the good opinions. I'm scared of being caught doing something I'm not supposed to. Even though there's nothing. It's like having the police pull you over and you overthink everything you just did. Rumours. They spread like wildfire. They ruin friendships. Make everything harder than it already is. But that's not my problem. I'm just so tired. So tired of performing in front of everyone. So tired of pretending I care. So tired of trying to be better for him. So tired of faking it. What do I even do? How would I even do it? Well, who cares.