I'm attached to an older man again. I hate it. I wish I was normal and I wish I didn't have these thoughts. my mind always wonders off to places I don't want it to, every adult man that serves as any sort of safe place for me I immediately catch feelings for and then all I want to do is be around them all the time no matter where I am or how I'm doing mentally. I wish it was possible but in reality what kind of girl am I to think an adult would even try something with me...ever.