Just want you to know that those things you think about yourself arent true. Our brains are natural story tellers and sometimes its not a good story. If you focus on that story and believe then your brain is like oh, did we like that one? here is another. Think of yourself as a director. This is your story. Write something beautiful about yourself and believe it with your whole heart. You are smart. You are capable and you belong here. This goes deeper than being beautiful. This is war and sometimes that war is against your self. Not a violent war. No harm done. I guess its better described as tennis. Just promise you will try and stay here. The world needs you. You need you. You are so fortunate to have life. I love you and I hope youre all doing well. REMEBER YOUR RESOURCES AND USE THEM! There are crisis lines that are great to use. I am rooting for you!