What the fuck am I doing? What am I going to do? What should I have already done? When was that due by? What am I behind on? and what is on my feet I swear I just swept the floor but I really dont care about that but man is it really bothering me lets just sit and watch tv but the coffee table is covered in everything ive done the past two weeks(lets be real its been at least a month)gosh why am i so disgusting and why am i so mean to myself and its time for work lets charge up our sunshine meter cause we dont want to get people down but what about me im screaming for help but im the only one that can hear it cause heaven forbid i make someone worry about me no need to worry a need to worry happened long ago but im fine "its just stress, how are you?" gotta be there oh shit now im too there ive booked a hangout with everyone in my family and all my friends time to fly for two days saturday sunday really flys im dizzy with it... (part one)