I'm gay and I think women are beautiful, but part of me wishes I was straight. It would be better if I was a man that still liked women. That way, I would never have to wonder what people think or hide myself to not silently offend them. I live in one of the most tolerant, progressive cities in the entire US, but I still don't feel safe, even though there are gay people everywhere and I even see them hold hands walking down the street. This is as good as it gets, and I still wish I was a straight man. Like why wasn't I just a dude?? I even have the personality to match. I'm ultimately okay with being a woman, but I really wish dating was as simple for me as anyone else; I just want to blend into the background, and be a normal heterosexual couple on a date. Seeing gay couples evokes a vague disgust in me, and I truly think everyone feels it to some degree but they are too nice to say it. I feel terrible subjecting others to that, why was I born this way? I wish I could be free.