I think somethings wrong with me. I have a partner, and they are grand, sure they have their flaws and so do I, but I hate that every time I get close to someone I start to crush on them. First it was my partner’s ex friend, I got close and realized how much our relationship lacked, and how jealous she was. Then now, I met someone I love as a friend, but more and more I think about what it would be like being with them. I hate it, it’s not that I want to cheat or whatever, and I’ve been as loyal as a dog, but my mind can never stop putting those thoughts in my brain. Knowing full well, even if I did leave for whatever idiotic reason, they would never like me back. I know that, but sometimes I wish that I could know if they like me or not, to have an experience grander than my relationship now. It’s not horrible, but I am. My partner and friends deserve better, deserve more than I ever had or will have. I just love them all so much in different ways.