I cant do this anymore. I have no one and growing up, my parents treated me as a pet and im an only child whos not close with anyone else or relatives bc i was always threatened not to say a word to anyone about whats going on at home. A toxic, unhelpful environment each night and day since I was born. Im 20 now and still damage is done. I grew up acting weird and different that i cant make friends. I still feel like a loser even though i have talents but it's wasted potential bc no one supports me so im a failure like my own parents. Love it. And i have made a decision, im leaving this world. I been thinking that since i was 3 and now my decision is fucking final I hate how unfair everything treats me as.