I hate my OCD, my intrusive thoughts get so bad at night. they will never leave me alone. it feels like someone it whispering in my ears. no matter how loud the music in my headphones is, it's still right there. I curl up into a ball begging for it to go away. I've screamed for it to go away. it won't listen. but every therapist or psychiatrist asks if I see thinks or have hallucinations. no. I don't. I hear them in my head, I don't see anything or physically hear them. they just are haunting my mind. like an evil version of me trying to take over the real me. it's so hard sometimes to tell them a part because they'll tell me that it's the real me saying all these bad thoughts. I know it isn't but it's so hard to not think about it because of how loud they are. I always hate telling people the thoughts because I'm scared they'll think I actually think what the voices are telling me. I swear I don't. I promise they aren't my real thoughts. I'm always so scared of them. that they're real