I've been dealing with some episodes of really quite sudden and stabbing dysphoria recently. I don't know if it's a side effect of me having to deal with other things that are lowering my mood. It's the most ridiculous stuff just suddenly feeling like everything is wrong about me in a way that I've not felt before unless I've been repressing it. A sudden stabbing pain in the chest and feeling on the verge of a panic attack because I can't spontaneously grow boobs. It's all so pathetic and I actually find myself getting pissed off and mad at myself for feeling this way because there's no logic to it and it's just so stupid. I know I'm not doing myself any favours and I know this is probably my fault but maybe I can actually wake up and do something about this one day when my brain stops being so overwhelmed with everything else. Sorry if you're reading this