If I had a choice, I wouldn't really want to be alive. I stick around because an Irish Goodbye into the Afterlife would be disruptive to people in my life. But I have no attachment to being alive. Not even in a dramatic sad way. Just in a "WTF is the purpose of this? Human life makes no sense " kinda way. It's a pity humans can't donate their life force to others who would like to stick around longer. "Hey Johnny, I'm retiring from the game. Of the 50 years worth of life force I have left, here's 45 for you, you have kids and cancer runs in your family. Stay safe, stay alive "