I miss dating. Im a hopeless romantic at heart. I loved you so so sooo so very much and everything was good and I was healthy with myself again. And then you have the audacity to cheat and tell me you thought you were hallucinating. But I cant be mad honestly because I was you once. I had that friend who made you crave them just enough to always go back. I cheated more than I want to admit because I just wanted them. But I left that person for good and met you, and then you left. Its probably karma. I probably deserved it. But I just missing kissing and holding hands and having sex, and telling you just how much I loved you. Why did that person show me the bad internet at 10 years old? Got addicted for years and it made me feel like watching that stuff now is wrong. Maybe it is. Maybe its not. I just want inner peace. I want my own person again.