Had a dream a few nights ago that I somehow ran into my very (emotionally and sexually) abusive first ex, but they weren't angry or scared of confronting me. I've had the realization that they were probably in denial of being a trans woman. They told me they've been okay, because they figured out they were trans or nonbinary. I broke down in tears and sobbed hugging them holding them again and it felt so real. It's been on my mind constantly since. I want to text him. We haven't spoken since 2018. But obviously we ended on very bad terms and our last interaction was me, very drunk on new years (his birthday) and sayig "I'm almost blackout drunk, happy birthday you abusive fuck" The reason I think they were in denial of being trans is bc they were part of a diagnosed DID system and all their alters called them a She and called them a name they never told me, and he lashed out at me when I tried to come out as nonbinary. I think this will be the only closure I will ever get. -ANIMALS