It doesnt even feel like closure though. All it did was make me long to hold him again even though I have a wonderful partner who I have know just as long as him and I love with all my heart, he saved me from my ex for Christ's sake. Surely it can't still be a trauma response? I truly did care for him, not just because I was always afraid of him threatening suicide. I cared about him before he abused me. Surely not all of my love towards him were compulsions of fear? I wanted to marry him for crying out loud. I don't know. Maybe Im just still feeling from realizing he SAd me irl and that I never could've consented to it. Oh well. Fml. Therapists don't care about what happened to you online. -ANIMALS
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