I hate having adhd and dyscalculia, I feel so stupid and useless all the time. I can't give my parents what they wish for or anything, I don't hide it, but I don't share it publicly alot. I'll always be known as the, "slow friend" even tho I know alot. I want to be smart and I want to be better but I just can't, I can't get out of bed in the morning, I can't do homework, I can't do anything. I'm gonna have this for the rest of my life. I don't see me going far in my life, having disabilities as someone who hasn't gotten to college yet you have to have, "realistic goals" for yourself. I love space and It would be my dream to work there, but I'll never be able to. People just say, "Ohh believe in yourself yes you can!" Or, "If you try really hard you can!" No. Those people don't get it, I will never be able to and it breaks my heart. I've loved space since I was about five years old. I don't know what to do anymore this is awful and I don't wan't to live like this.