I genuinely want to be in a mental hospital. I have suicidal thoughts, I started cutting myself and I'm often fucking insane. I have a lot of dysphoria (gender, body, species and kin) which makes me fucking want to bleed even more. I want a future. I want to get a top and bottom surgery, get testosterone and be happy, but I'm not sure I'll make it past 18. On the 13th (july) I will turn thirteen and I'm planning to come out to my family that I'm trans. I hope they accept me. About psych wards I wanted (and still do) them so desperatly, that I started dreaming about it. I just have no purpose of my life (my lovely cat is keeping me up) and my brain tells me every single bad thing about anything I do.
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