sometimes i wish i had friends. like, genuine REAL friends. friends who would give time to me and listen to anything that's concerning me the way i do for them. im always attentive and the therapeutic friend even when im overwhelmed and don't know how to respond. i do my best. i wish i had someone who would do the same for me. i'd feel less lonely if i did. a friend of my own, or just someone who cares. strangers on the internet treat me better than my friends do and it makes me sad. because why, if i haven't done anything bad, can't i get the same courtesy? why won't anyone be there for me? why is everyone always busy when it's my turn? i wish i wouldn't feel like this because i love my friends, but i don't think they love me the same way back. they say they do, or they can say that they do, but actions speak louder than words. i know where i stand and it's not the same.