I fell back into that one addiction I used to have and everything feels so good but so bad at the same time. I'm not worrying about the things that I was constantly worried about after I quit and it's a great distraction, but I was also trying to get better by being on screens less and actually doing something with my life, starting to read books again, and actually eating food, but now I keep forgetting, and when I do remember, it's almost dinner so I just wait until then to eat. It's ruling my life again and I can't stop. Fucking addiction sucks, and if I could go back and prevent having those disgusting things done/shown to me that made me this way, I would. I always wonder what I'd be like if I didn't need that kind of constant stimulation.