I hate being a woman. I hate that I have fetishized the victimhood of myself and other women. I hate that I got some weird hormonal reaction from being sexually harassed by some gross dude. I was scared shitless and a bit traumatized at the time, like I couldn't be comfortable in my own skin. I got my period a week early, and I usually can have some sexual thoughts casually and not have it be a problem, but after that I'd have a sexual thought and I couldn't get myself turned off, because I've never had to before. it's like some stupid porn cliche. It reminds me of those andrea long chu quotes about female ppl being holes or being fucked is the essence of femaleness. I don't want this, I never chose to be this. i hate that i see myself as subhuman just because i'm a woman, even though i've tried to get myself not to. i hate that men will think they are more feminist than women and lecture us about our internalized misogyny, because they think they've gotten rid of theirs. you didn't.