well, I can't say for sure how things will end. I have issues finding an internship, partly cause I already had confidence issues that I was already dealing with, and perhaps being boycotted for 2 semesters straight worsened the issue without me noticing. I have processed a lot of this, but I guess I'm sick of not being able to somewhat succeed in life. Currently I am working a part time job and while things were initially getting better, with me managing to figure out how to work all the while blending with the other coworkers and whatever fucked up shenanigans they come with, recently a new task has been ordered and logically speaking, i find it rather nonsensical that the company would issue a task that has not ever been executed for ages, but what mainly bothers me lately is just how this has changed things. I of course, did not master the task immediately, but I also feel like my manager is just chewing me out partly because of the expectations and stress of the new task.