I think I’m gender fluid. But I’m not exactly sure. Like, a part of me wants to cut my hair, dye it black, wear a binder, choose a new name, just run away and live a completely different life than what I’m living rn. And then the other half of me wants to wear makeup, have my hair long and blonde how it is, and js be super girly. Idk how to explain it, but I just have an itch to cut off all contact with my family, move cities, and call myself a guy. No one would support me, I’d get so much hate, and my parents would absolutely flame me for it, but atleast I’d be happy, yk? I could be an author, I could pursue things I want to pursue without being questioned by family or friends. But it would also make me sorta sad too. I’d be alone for a while, I wouldn’t know how to face life. Yet my dream is to just be a man, with a flat chest, with short black hair, with a new name. I want to be someone’s boyfriend, someone’s son, someone’s brother. But it just feels like a distant dream.