im a girl but i want to be a man so bad. sometimes i feel like it isnt even worth living because ill always be a woman. when i wake up from dreams where im a man i feel an indescribable disappointment. i know if i really wanted to i could just transition and be a trans man but i know how people treat you if youre trans. ive been called a "girl who wants to be a boy" in the past. thats not what i want to be. no matter if i transition, i will still always be the girl who wants to be a boy.