I'm so angry all the time, I hate so much, I hate the I have no privacy and I feel stuck and trapped, I want to feel clean and fresh and happy which I haven't felt in so long. I want to be friends with Lily, like we were years ago, ACTUALLY TALKING! I don't want any romance obviously or anything more than our fun friendship again, why can't she just talk to me?! Like we used to, can't we hangout again? My world feels hollow and horrible without her friendship. Why can't I succeed in my goals? Where my determination and drive!! I have hopes dreams and plans but no spark of energy to do them. Why can't I save money? Why can't I talk to people? Why do I hate so many people?? Why do I hate my family? I hate them and cont stand when I act like them, I hate like LIVING with them. I want to have friends like me! I also hate it when people I don't like have similar interests or similar habbits as me, makes me feel unoriginal! I want to be a perfect Polorixior!!