i would take naps in bed with him naked while i fell asleep to a channel for toddlers. i wasnt even in 1st grade. why dont i remember any of it and why was i constantly getting UTIs. what did he do to me. why did he stop at age 11 when i got y period. was he raping me? was he doing stuff to me in my sleep? it wont come to me even though i have been away from him for months. dont these memories resurface once you're away from them and get triggered? i have a complete memory block from when i first started having memories. everything with him is gone up until the middle of first grade. i have memories of my mom and dad driving me to kindergarten and seeing me during nap time but that was it. no memories of learning anything. and of course my memory is blocked from ages 10-12