i feel so stuck in my relationship. i have been with someone for almost 10 months at this point long distance because i moved away a week before we got together and its been so 50/50. i adore him and ive changed myself in so many ways for him. ive had mdd for many years and as much as a struggle it is ive tried to maintain myself on no meds for him (because he doesnt want me to get back on them due to certain reasons) and ive tried my hardest to learn from my past relationships so i can be the best me for him. i feel like everyday i try and try as in trying to spend time together or just have a normal conversation and he pushes me away each time. for months ive been asking for him to just play a game with me or just call me and nobody else so we can just talk and he never does. i asked him why hes even with me and he claimed to love me but im really not sure anymore. the amount of stuff ive done for him that i shouldnt and havent ever done before is a lot just to be in the background.