God I feel like such a burden to everyone in my life. I have so much going on with my family and my health and I hate talking about it to anyone because it feels like it’s bothering them and annoying. My father is basically leaving my family to go to his second family with his affair partner from twenty fucking years ago and he’s making it seem all my fault and he’s threatening me and stuff. And then my heart has been giving me issues and it’s so scary and I’m trying to get my mom to make me a doctors appointment and I’ve been trying to make her know it’s serious and not something I’m saying to get out of class and it’s been brought to her attention for four whole years now and she’s using it as a reason to not let me do things when she’s mad at me. Just today one of my friends is having a show that she invited me to come see but my mom won’t let me because I felt dizzy earlier as I do every single day. And I can’t talk to anyone and there’s so much more going on.